Pieces

Shocking. I almost forgot I had this thing. Maybe's its because life has taken off on me and I'm having a hard time keeping up.

This whole being an adult and making decisions thing is not always what its cracked up to be. The whole "you can grow up and be whatever you want to be" speech you got when you were a kid...not exactly true.

In the last two months, I've been asked if I should even be in my grad school program, a question i'm still fighting to find the answer to, and a question that i wish I had never been asked. I worked like a maniac over Christmas and feel as though I have finally maybe earned my spot in the workplace. (Still got to see my family though and ski-two things very dear to my heart). I rang in a new year with exhaustion, which has seemed to follow me through these first weeks so far. To make things a little better, I went to an amazing conference which gave me a tiny sliver of hope that I might actually be successful in my life career choice...someday. and another reassurance? Cast in a Theatre for very young audiences musical that will bring a storybook to life for 2-6yr old children...as a lead! Yet, still, I feel as though a piece to my life is missing, something isn't whole and I haven't quite figured that out yet. Am I in the right place? Doing the right thing? Could I be there instead of here?....

I know, you're thinking...life has ups and downs. I know this. mine is no where near perfect. As I sit here at the end of a day that brought us a whole lot of snow and a day off from real life, it really doesn't help the nostalgia I'm feeling. What I have learned though..is you often don't realize how often something is, until it's happened and its past. So...my belated new years resolution? To try and stay in the moment and hold on to it for as long as possible, to make that memory even sweeter when I go to look back on it. Cliche, I know, but hey, at least I'm not trying to lose weight or "give something up" like everyone else does.

So, A little random update to the world (who I'm sure has no idea that this silly little thing exists), and a little more off my chest and into words.

"Take these little pieces,
build me up a wall.
So that I might climb it,
be a thousand stories tall" ~Me