I'm a firework

So its funny how life decides to surprise you and reassure you that you aren't crazy.

I managed to make an analogy connecting Hamlet and the Wizard of Oz through educational drama in my performance inquiry class tonight, and it was AWESOME. one of those you had to be there moments...but it totally came off the top of my head and was one of those I'm totally in the right place now moments. Sometimes I think i'm going to be a complete failure at this drama/theatre for the young stuff, and then something like this happens and i'm good again.

on another completely different note- my best friend got married this past weekend, and as her maid of honor, i was swept into the whirlwind of wedding planning, last minute doubts, unforseen laughter, and the beauty of the happiness that two people can share despite the odds. being the only single girl on board (in the wedding party), gave me the chance to see the wedding through unbiased eyes. I didn't have anything to compare it to, no one to imagine being in a wedding, and it was an interesting experience. I thought I was ok with not being in a hurry to do the whole marriage thing-never planned a wedding, picked out the colors, or the dress like most girls who are my age already have completely figured out, but suddenly i'm feeling a little behind on the ball.

is this part of growing up? I can't avoid it...especially now that she's married. I can't help but wonder, will I ever be so lucky as to have as beautiful as a wedding as she did? we kept joking i was going to be the old dog lady (i'm not a fan of cats), but i hope to god not. Maybe I'm not sure about growing up, but I do know for sure I don't want to end up alone when I do decide to grow up.

So, for the first time in my life, I started looking at dresses and thinking about colors....and then gave up-better to not think about it until I have a reason too.

again with the random switch- my new favorite song Firework by Katy Perry. look it up and you will see why.

I'm off to sleep and dream of fireworks...in all the implied meaning of the word. :)

"Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July"